Addison

The wai-ai-ting is the hardest part..

This may be the most nervous I’ve been throughout this entire experience.

No email yet, but I’m expecting the worst.

I shot Morgan a text, because when I hear The Reduction, and Consequence.. I’m worried for him. No response. We’ve had a little bit of a falling out after the past couple weeks, our views…[Read more]

@blondie, I love you, but how would you suggest stopping an angry mob via the internet, using the tools our our disposal? This was going to happen one way or another, and put OSDM’s focus on The One (including those within that group that aren’t BOS, or didn’t vote). What good would it have done to have also asked BOS or the otherwise anti-OSDM…[Read more]

Nobody knew what was going to come from MyChild, yes. We all knew that no matter the outcome, things would be changed forever. It was a drastic move.

I see your point @blondie. By not voting, but also not actively taking measures to stop the voting from happening, there is some responsibility. Responsibility from not taking action. Sure. However…[Read more]

While yes, it was a community discussion and decision.. you were the one to post the topic. You rallied votes. you spearheaded the project.

Yes, the responsibility is on all that voted, and all that stood by watching. But even though you weren’t the one to pull the trigger and you weren’t the sole operator in choosing a target, you procured the…[Read more]

I got a No Caller ID call at 12:16pm pst. I’m 99% sure it was the same exact call as everyone else, it was extremely garbled and by the time I got a voice recorder up and running for transcript, I missed the repeat option 🙁

I’m so confused as to why mine came through blocked.. like, they would’ve had to do that specifically.

Sooooo by deleting our files from the system, we now have pretty huge targets on our backs. They’re going to want that data back.

And now that there are “no more shadows to hide in” – nobody is safe.

They still know who we are, based on the Hostess in Black leaks, we are being actively monitored. So they know where to find us, and at this point…[Read more]

Approaching this from a purely grasping at straws POV, which is likely unrelated here (as most “looking back at Tension” things have been), this is just what it looks like on paper –

The Persistence of Memory: asking us to look back at memory. Things remembered from the past.

The Crowley quote: Early in The Tension Experience, there were quotes…[Read more]

Sooooo the being here is probably representative of MyChild? And the lack of Lust watermark may mean that MyChild or BOS is in control of the FB page at the moment?

You, The One, have made your choice.

You believe that their dependence on all of you is their greatest weakness.

We begin now.

Out of the shadows we will step.

Ditto. This is all fun and good to talk about, but like. What happens if this is successful? And even worse, what happens if it’s unsuccessful?

And honestly, the fact that this is being discussed and decided on the boards that are actively operated and monitored by OSDM means the latter is most likely.

but anyway, have fun storming the castle!

I finally had a little time today to sorta-kinda put thoughts in writing, mostly gathering and transcribing my random “this is important” notes and some bits and pieces from my periscope into an actual post. It’s all stuff I talked about last night..

I’ve been thinking a lot about this essay by Durga Chew-Bose – Heart Museum. It’s in her colle…[Read more]

Sorry, can we go back to the part where “Jack” wasn’t properly vetted, who stood there listening to the answers to any possible question, including “can we trust Jack.”

And can we talk about that time when “Jack” turned out to be Mason?

And how Mason, who we’ve learned cannot be trusted by the BOS, has what we were told is true honest info…[Read more]

👏👏👏👏👏

This has to be coincidence, it’s a really strange and pretty obscure callback. But in April, Geena and I were doing honeymoon stuff, and I had sent this to my Confidant. It’s probably on the top of my mind because I also have a model of the ship on my desk.

Just so it’s on the board – my thoughts about my alignment and a handful of liquor. I’m sorry for rambling, and i didn’t mean to go so long, I’ll transcribe it/edit down my full thoughts tomorrow. This stirred up some really crazy feelings i haven’t felt in years.

https://www.periscope.tv/w/1vAxRNrjjOrxl

@larry courtesy of @bcbishop https://thelustexperience.com/forums/topic/6-11-iconfidant-event-leaked-video/

@larry I’ve listened to it a few times in the past couple days.. it hurts. But it’s worth going back to. Now that we’ve put a few months between then and now, especially. A frank discussion about dissociation following a fundamental loss of control of one’s own life, and how she has been regaining that control.

@larry this this, all of this.

Yes, iConfidant was a sham. It was alllll set up to trick us into opening ourselves up. The personas we were communicating with were definitely catered to each of us, either by mirroring us or by being the person we were looking to talk to. But for it to work as well as it did (and it worked really well for me),…[Read more]

I feel like the iConfidant emails were and still are EXTREMELY important. I had been going back over mine recently, which lead to my decision last night (trying to figure out the best way and format to discuss my reasoning with regards to that yet). The truth hidden within the lies.

There is emotional data there, in plain text. But it was a two…[Read more]