Candace

@pandace88 Both! It lurks in your unconscious, and your goal is to bring it to consciousness. To dialogue with it. Ask what it wants. Ever been around someone that “rubs you the wrong way”? Likely it’s because they are exhibiting qualities you don’t like in yourself.

You gotta see “The Babadook”, which is all about a mother who didn’t want…[Read more]

I received the same note with my book that @mistere and @pandace88 received. (The note from Melody that speaks about her excitement meeting Addison / Number 2)

At first, I thought it just logical that I received a note that referenced Addison, since I followed and emotionally invested in her story and family story more than anything else in…[Read more]

@pandace88 I think you’ve hit the nail on the head, actually.

@pandace88 – now comes the part in your life where you have to seriously think about whether you should turn your phone off during a massage. 😉

@lilmsfancpants – yay!!!

@pandace88 I don’t even know who’s who anymore. There was one post by my Double talking about Ouroboros. The rest were from me.

I think.

My head hurts.

@pandace88 Maybe this helps? I talk a good game but I’m no expert.

https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/evil-deeds/201204/essential-secrets-psychotherapy-what-is-the-shadow

@pandace88 Yes, that was me. When it became clear shadow profiles may be an actual thing, I changed my pic back to the original to avoid confusion.

@pandace88 I hadn’t even made this connection yet, haha!

My time at the OOA could be summed up quite neatly as an experiment in self-reflection, mimicry, and allowing myself to be present and letting those tests affect me. Especially on my second visit.

But will we be able to dig even deeper in LUST? Will we be challenged to find the ways in…[Read more]

@pandace88 Glad I’m not the only one who did that 😆❤ Bravo @kipsie!

It is interesting, @lasalle and @pandace88, to consider Noah as former clay that has been molded into his current persona for a specific purpose by some to-be-named-later Puppetmaster. OSDM?
But, there is a difference in the OOA’s faith in what we, as a community, could project of ourselves onto Addison/Sabrina and this Noah creation that has…[Read more]

@pandace88 That’s a really interesting theory! It’s kind of in line with what happened to Addison/Sabrina during Tension. You have this girl who comes to LA with big dreams who just gets totally crushed by reality. She’s in a fairly vulnerable state but then comes across an “organization” that promises to take her in, build her up, and help her…[Read more]

Thumbs up for the Killing Joke @pandace88!

I never read his website with a “who hurt him” type of undertone. I read it as someone who has gotten screwed over time and time again and decided to change his life. Like, he stopped being a doormat and just said “Fuck it”..the way I’m doing things isn’t working. Time for change. It’s like that Seinfeld…[Read more]

@pandace88 I feel the same way, it was really the only thing that actually shocked me. The whole time, I was thinking “Naah, they’re not gonna do THAT. This is just a tease, right?” Then it happened anyway, and it was easily the most visceral, and “real” experience I had at Tension. It sounded just like I would have expected it to sound, I…[Read more]

@superstar @pandace88:
I work in television and I wonder if the experience is different form that of being on stage. I’m a writer, not an actor. I’m not sure if that is what makes the difference, but I usually have the ability to be fully in. But every so often sometimes, something happens that my brain steps in for a second and goes “Wow, that…[Read more]

@pandace88: I want to react to something you said last night so this is delayed, sorry, but OMG, YES ME TOO.

I work in theatre so for me, it’s really hard to not see actors, props, sets, scripts, etc. It’s really hard for me to allow myself to connect in a real way because to me it’s all fake.

HOLY SHIT YES. I’ve been working in theater for 2…[Read more]

Not many people have touched on physical boundaries in this thread, which I believe is part of my personal 4th wall. Physical engagement enhances certain immersive experiences for me.

Yes, @russell… I couldn’t agree with you more on this. Both Heretic and Blackout have taught me my physical boundaries, no matter how uncomfortable I may…[Read more]

@pandace88: “I work in theatre so for me, it’s really hard to not see actors, props, sets, scripts, etc. It’s really hard for me to allow myself to connect in a real way because to me it’s all fake…there’s that cynical adult side of me that doesn’t let me do things because “that’s stupid”, “how embarrassing”, “you’ll look dumb”…I didn’t even k…[Read more]

Having not been apart of ascension/tension, and being a fairly new participant in the world of immersive theater, I find all of it a little intimidating. Which is funny, because I have been involved in theater for so many years now, and I love a riveting thought provoking work of art. Since I was young, a moving piece of art that can reach me in…[Read more]

@pandace88 preposterous!

Well it looks like I kind of missed the boarding of the train on the last newbie thread so i’ll just introduce myself here, hello friends. I am slowly but diligently catching myself up on Tension history as I was not an active participant. @pandace88 decided to bring me into the fold long after ascension was done but that’s ok. I am excited to…[Read more]