Megan

Looking at those pages they don’t match anything I have from Tension. I haven’t been the greatest at keeping records of everything in Lust but I know others have been doing a good job, so maybe someone else knows. The blackout text pattern doesn’t look familiar to me at all.

But, just piggybacking on what @mike said…it kind of doesn’t look like…[Read more]

Actually thanks for reminding me – I meant to take a look at those emails in that photo, I can do that for a bit this afternoon.

I want to also point out here because I’m afraid it’s going to get lost in other discussions – there may actually be information in these calls that’s relevant to a larger narrative. I’m trying my best to pick out what that is, if it’s there. Maybe it’s not there at all but I don’t want to lose the thread of it if it’s important. In this case, it…[Read more]

as much as it has been indicative of a dangerously unhinged person that flies into a rage when things go sideways

Oh THAT’S who Mason is! He’s the director of my last show.

Be careful with these nightly calls. Please don’t get too comfortable with his brand of lunacy.

I am in Minnesota. I am in Minnesota. I am in Minnesota.
Everything’s f…[Read more]

That is but one reason why it is too late.

You and I would be great fun at parties.

@shankfx22 – I think…if anything the facade that he tore down was the one of being in control (hi Noah), because I was clearly NOT in control of that conversation. He knew most of the answers already and kept pulling the rug out from under me, even if it was just a small rug. I remain skeptical of things until I see them and it’s difficult for…[Read more]

Not in the overly nasal voice from the livestream the other night, no. In the Billy Crudup voice. It’s not the voice that’s off-setting.

@larry – it’s too late for the others? or for me?

Also worth noting – this call happened RIGHT BEFORE @mike‘s call. I went back to the game (Dominion) after this call, and shortly after received a text from Mike that he’d gotten a call. So he got off the phone from the above conversation, and called Mike to discuss K-pop.

@theladyj – it’s getting better? I mean the calls are getting more normal? I am much more concerned for y’all than I am for me, you’re actually physically THERE.

Yeah it’s some coincidence but it’s still just a coincidence. I’d love to suspend disbelief and be able to go there with you but TPTB know me better than that. The Desiderata is a very well known piece of inspirational writing. It’s the kind of thing that is passed around non-stop in self-help groups and AA meetings. I volunteered a lot with NH…[Read more]

Either that or he’s recording my voice to use for nefarious purposes.

Mason doesn’t know that I like that poem (he does now). That was just a coincidence. I have lines from it committed to memory but I doubt I could just recite the whole thing. As a teenager and college student in the 90s I volunteered for a lot of those at-risk youth programs and so shit like this was always around. As I get older I just feel like…[Read more]

@erisbonn – I think it’s one that we all relate to and need to hear. It’s good advice. We all let ourselves and our wants (lusts!) get in the way of actually heeding it though.

@macbethinabathtub – well, that may be true, but I don’t think that was the intended message here.

I have been reciting this poem to myself since I was a teenager. I had parts of it stitched on my backpack in high school.

I fail at every statement in this poem, always, and I’m well aware. So…that was intentional.

I call it “me asking for it.”

Mason just called me again. He did not ask to listen to me sleep this time, he said he had a request, and he asked me to read something to him. I asked what it was, and he said to look up the Desiderata. (Subtle messaging there guys thanks) I asked him what I would get in return, and he said “don’t embarrass yourself, Megan.” When I asked why that…[Read more]