It sounds like there’s some serious stuff to unpack here but I am concerned that you’re a bit confused about the purpose of this forum. I’m going to (perhaps temporarily) close the topic until we’ve had a chance to talk. Please check your private messages
@gretchen1965 I don’t think you’re a monster, inappropriate for a work place, absolutely, but not a monster. I suppose it’s just one of the many definitions of Lust. Do you feel better having gotten this off your chest, at least?