• Sitting at my desk at work when my phone rings. No Caller ID.

    I answer. It’s Irene. She asks how my week was. I tell her it was good, a bit slow. I ask how her’s was. She tells me she is sad the rain is gone. She likes the rain. It washes away the impurity, the disease. When she woke up this morning and saw the sun she got depressed.

    Then she…[Read more]

  • There is no ‘Truth’. There is only your emotion at the time.
    At this moment–I’m feeling tired, energized. Hopeful and betrayed. Contemplative and frightened.
    All at once.

    I’m also angry at myself for not being clear.

  • Sarah posted an update 4 years, 6 months ago

    “Do not wait; the time will never be ‘just right.’ Start where you stand, and work with whatever tools you may have at your command, and better tools will be found as you go along.” — Napoleon Hill

  • Last night 3/20, was the spring equinox or Ostara, a time when the light and dark is balanced, but the light is becoming stronger. It’s a time of reawakening and new beginnings. Sara and I met at dusk and walked over newly sprouted grass shoots into the woods, crossed a pebbled stream, and settled into a wooden glen encircled by oak trees. As…[Read more]

  • The History of the Helmet


    Most of us were first introduced to the Helmet at the donut mixer in May 2016. Sean, Russell, Rizzo, Mike Fontaine, and Andrew Kasch were all taken to a private room and helmeted by Gatekeeper 4. Gatekeeper 4 told Andrew that he was now experiencing the machine that turned her into what she is today.

    At…[Read more]

  • I have a small group of very close friends in Lust, and within that group there is/was a group of four that chatted constantly in the months leading up to November of last year. Mike F., Michelle, Bryan, and me. I considered them my closest friends here. Those were the people targeted when I was missing. Then Mike left and our communications have…[Read more]

  • I don’t really know the best place to put this. Here makes sense…maybe?

    It’s been a long, strange four or five days. It started with Irene and her phrase: “A series of words. At a specific location. To secure compliance.” I’ve gone back and forth on that since. On one hand, it’s totally true. On the other, we still have agency and the ability…[Read more]

  • “The world is changed.
    I feel it in the water.
    I feel it in the Earth.
    I smell it in the air.
    Much that once was is lost.”

    I stumbled into this strange world and from it earned innumerable riches. Yet somewhere, somehow, something happened to it. And to me. I echo much of what @bcbishop has said. Evidence was lacking for quite some time, or so…[Read more]

  • Megan posted an update 4 years, 6 months ago

    “We’re too much ourselves. Afraid of letting go of what we are, in case we are nothing, and holding on so tight, we lose everything else.”

  • Suffice to say that I’ve found today’s news about Darren helmetting Morgan disturbing. And it’s time to do what little I can to hopefully fix some of the damage I’ve done.

    I mentioned some of this in Slack already, but for posterity:

    From pretty early on in this thing, I’ve been all-in on The Experience. I was there for the self-realization, for…[Read more]

  • Lauren posted an update 4 years, 6 months ago

    “The best answers often come only after we have discovered the correct questions.” — Bocephus

  • I’m on board right now from the standpoint that this is what we as a community were describing that we needed: a group of people whose goals are aligned in being supportive of things, rather than destructive.

    A group of ‘us’ of just people without the backing of an Institute or Organization or Society or whatever, who will use what resources we…[Read more]

  • rosie replied to the topic Fun for All Seasons in the forum JUST FRIENDS 4 years, 6 months ago

    Do you have any suggested books or articles about these rituals? This is exactly the kind of thing I’m a huge nerd for. I did a section in my bachelor’s thesis about occult festivals in revolutionary era Paris, so this is RIGHT up my alley!

  • So, yesterday in the Slack chat I brought up something from the past: The Briarberg Institute. A group that had the goal of ‘de-programming’ those who were in the OSDM and wanted to leave it behind and return to normal life. Granted, @russell later revealed it was a lie.

    Given what’s been going on with the community lately, I’ve got a better…[Read more]

  • This morning there was some talk on slack about the wider implications of the ritual Brad and Meghan witnessed. Here is my take, watching this happen from more or less outside: this community, right now, is not the same community that did Tension. Yes, there are people common to both experiences, but there are folks here now who weren’t around…[Read more]

  • As you may have seen, Meghan and I were tasked to go to the Beverly Hills Hotel tonight. I get there and she’s dead silent to me, doesn’t even look up when I get there. I later find out that this is from an instruction from Noah. Keep this in mind, it’ll come back later.

    An Uber arrives and asks for us, we get in and are taken to a really nice…[Read more]

  • Small things? That’s part of my confusion. (And, man…. I am confused these days.)
    At the end of Ascension, wasn’t part of Michelle’s overall frustration with the pace of progress for the OSDM seemed to be, in her opinion, glacial – because of the tactics of her predecessors?

    She wanted bigger actions. She wanted bigger, faster results.
    Are…[Read more]

  • So at the end of Tension, we were told it was all a lie. That the whole point was gathering data. I think most people accepted that as truth.

    After the events of yesterday. I’m fairly certain it is. Why would Irene and her group ever do Tension/Lust in the first place? They have been around awhile. They seem to be doing well for themselves. But…[Read more]

  • Hey gang, for those who have been following along on Slack, you’ll have seen my recent message to our mysterious powers that I’m done with the fight. I’m willing to work with and hopefully learn from them. Me being super loud and obnoxious BOS guy for the past year, it obviously came with lots of questions. I know it seems like a sudden shift, but…[Read more]

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