August 10, 2017 at 2:42 pm #22275CodyParticipantAugust 10, 2017 at 3:13 pm #22276Andrew KaschParticipant
@maddyxxx You might feel like you’re not human anymore, but your actions speak volumes.
Underneath every troubled person who declares that they’re “damaged” is at least a spark of humanity. And I think you have more than you let on.August 10, 2017 at 3:21 pm #22277August 10, 2017 at 3:49 pm #22278Lukas LParticipantAugust 10, 2017 at 4:36 pm #22282August 10, 2017 at 4:42 pm #22283August 10, 2017 at 5:10 pm #22284Lawrence MeyersParticipantAugust 10, 2017 at 5:31 pm #22285Robert FullerParticipant
This task reminds me of one of my favorite movie quotes, which I often draw inspiration from. It’s from Phoebe in Wonderland:
“At a certain point in your life, probably when too much of it has gone by, you will open your eyes and see yourself for who you are, especially for everything that made you so different from all the awful normals. And you will say to yourself, ‘But I am this person.’ And in that statement, that correction, there will be a kind of love.”August 10, 2017 at 5:33 pm #22286MarandaParticipant
I’m not in a place where I can periscope today so a text post will have to do. I’ll preface this by saying I haven’t watched anyone’s responses yet, so this is me, 100%. Here goes…
I’m selfish. I hate that I have to remind myself to think about others sometimes, and that I’m not as attuned to what they feel and think as I could be. I hate that I’m not more generous to those in need, and as a Christian, that makes me a hypocrite. Sometimes I listen to others when they’re talking and only pretend to care. I’m insecure about my own accomplishments so that comes out as bragging or showing off to get validation from people around me.
I’m afraid of failure. In school, I was perfect. Top grades, model student, but of course the world doesn’t work like that. I miss out on opportunities because I don’t want to screw it up. I’ve never had a proper significant other, partially because I can’t in good faith enter into a relationship that I’m assuming will end with a breakup, and then all that wasted time and emotional baggage and then where would I be? I don’t want to be seen as “lesser” in the view of others when I do mess up, but that’s also because I’m projecting; I’m very hard on myself and hold myself to (one could say unreasonably) high standards, and am judgmental when they don’t live up to those standards.
In summary, I’m not as good of a person as I can be.August 10, 2017 at 6:03 pm #22287Twan IntarathuchParticipant
Not really sure what to say except I hope everyone that hates themselves finds some comfort in the fact you’re not alone here.August 10, 2017 at 7:13 pm #22288Sarah MusnickyParticipant
Now that I’ve embarrassed myself by crying and emoting and stuff…here…August 10, 2017 at 7:14 pm #22289SeanModerator
I over analyzed this so much I had to do a repeat. How fucked is that
Also to clarify, this was on Periscope. Hannah and Megan and a couple of others can vouch for that. My dumb ass just thought that selecting “broadcast to Tension group” meant it would invite everyone in that group rather than making it impossible to extract a link. So this is the rip from the broadcastAugust 10, 2017 at 7:21 pm #22290MeganParticipant
Me, at the absolute height of all my drunken powers.
These will be gone in 24 hours so enjoy while they last.August 10, 2017 at 7:26 pm #22291Julie R GoldsteinParticipant
Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck FuckAugust 10, 2017 at 7:49 pm #22292Hannah SchenckParticipant
@maddyxxx I know you watched but here it is, public and raw.
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